And then I enjoyed a big bowl of noodles with ranch and salsa.
These past few days….
Have you ever felt like you couldn’t reach your emotions even though you know they exist? For example… you’re in a bubble and tied to the bubble are strands reaching out for distances you can’t even feel but you know that they’re out there. These strands are, what seems, to be only manipulated by you. As you talk to people though you can feel the emotions swirling around you some bouncing off your bubble confusing, what you though was, your steady mind.
All the while you can sense that other people are different and allow the emotions to consume them as though they were trapped with inside their bubble either allowing people in or out and once in a while (whether they’re the center of the crowd or the ghost) their heads would pop with with an emotion around their head whilst the real emotions come crawling up their necks.
The way I’ve been feeling these past days is just me in my bubble. People around me to remind me of certain feelings that will appear in my bubble and will linger on until the day is over. But normally everyone says I just look lost in thought when in actuality I’m thinking of nothing but the beats in my head. It’s not a matter of losing control of my emotions. It’s a matter of me losing the observation to which emotions I should be feeling.